I am so happy to say that my new email account is going back to “normal settings” next week where I’m able to send you regular emails.
This means I can send you more morning emails with links, like some “in-the-body-practice” videos.
Okay, today’s message is ultimately about Receiving what you need to move forward in your life…
It may not look like what you think.
As we near the summer eclipses this year, many are focusing on what to leave behind as they move forward with life.
(You may have noticed the current energies have been louder than usual, digging up all the unconscious programming around judgment, opinions, righteousness, spiritual egos, and the unconscious truth and belief systems that are no longer resonating with your authentic self!).
Yes, we’re feeling this Total Lunar Eclipse conjunct the South Node in Sagittarius, revealing what we are no longer meant to carry forward.
First total lunar eclipse we’ve had in 2.5 years.
Yep, something may suddenly exit your life, or you may receive some life-pivoting news soon…
So maybe you’ve felt a restructuring process happening lately…
A redirection of sorts…
A restructuring of your life that you must make.
Even new timeline opportunities that do show up the more you step out of your comfort zone and open up to the possibilities and big life changes…
Overall, anchoring new life choices and a path towards what is truly soul-level fulfilling; a shift in what you value…
And what’s speaking to me lately for this message isn’t just about making room (releasing what no longer serves).
It’s the “being the GIFT” part.
Being grounded in your body at least once a day so you can be more AVAILABLE to witness, communicate, attune, open, and RECEIVE what you need from an embodied (arriving from the whole) place.
From the place you can’t touch with only your mind.
I feel a revelation may about to happen in your life as you drop more in your being, body and heart field on your way to the Lions gate energy, this summer (8/8).
Maybe something major in life is or isn’t what you thought it was…maybe something more, something overlooked.
Or just maybe, it’s all just part of the Journey of remembering your own union within, owning it, and being open to RECEIVE.
Feeling the Receptivity of a Present heart.
Being willing to receive the GIFT.
Yep, B-E-I-N-G the GIFT.
This means choosing love by ACTIVELY LOVING yourself in some tangible way (whatever this means for you in the moment/circumstance) even when you want to deny, distract, run, hide, throw a fit or act out.
Turning in toward the pain and ugly and “difficult shadowy” and ASKING what YOU NEED.
THEN RECEIVING WHAT YOU NEED.
Can you fully face and embrace the unpleasant feelings?
OWN the reality of “what is” without manipulating it?
OWN the space without inverting, sugar-coating, punishing or judging?
Own it each fleeting moment like a wave flowing through your body without “making it mean” something or grasping?
And bridge the gap of receiving the insight and key information (medicine) you need?
Bringing the “unresolved, unmet, disowned” back to the light of your awareness (present, receptive, coming from the whole, etc).
And taking ownership. Taking accountability of what really loving (yourself; anything) truly is?
Turning the abandoned into the in-the-body gift?
Into tangible form?
No matter what you’ve gone through, you can move from the unconscious looping, suffering, staying stuck… (too much mind!).
To energetically clean, self-aware “being” who is fully present to what is, just as it is, straight through to the body nervous system sensory level (who is thus able to disrupt old patterns in its tracks on a body behavioral level so they can create something new; ie. In other words, NOT just staying in the mental field and looping situations and unresolved patterns).
Meeting your WHOLE SELF that trusts and recognizes that you are the captain, ship, and navigator of it all.
Disrupting the repeating trauma pattern (ie; being trauma-informed and emotionally intelligent)…
And meeting your capacity to self-provision, self-love and co-create (take action) from WHAT IS, NOW.
Creating from, the NOW.
From the timeline of you being, already whole.
Like I mentioned in the past weeks of updates, getting OFF the co-dependent “spiritual-consumption” wheel by staying more grounded in your nervous system and body…
…is KEY for ending repetitive trauma patterns, relationships, and habits.
You must release the ENERGY behind these patterns on a PHYSICAL level that is trapped in your cells, limiting your frequency and perception from seeing YOU as the “whole” and moving forward as the powerful creator that you really are…
And your breath is all you really need.
You can’t shift your being from just the mental field…
You can’t shift your being when your nervous system is all numbed up; walled up from trauma.
You have to “unfreeze” the body armor first so you can IN-BODY something new.
Hopefully, this makes sense. I’ll be giving and sharing lots more of this in the future.
For now, the reason I am telling you this:
You just reading my updates and looking for the next one to arrive in the future isn’t about staying in a codependent cycle with me, imagining I am going to give you something that you can’t give you.
Because I can’t “give” you those keys inside you …
Only you can play them like a song already living inside you.
I’m just a mirror.
A fire starter.
A borrowed light to ignite yours.
I’m not your healer, guru, or coach.
What I do.
It’s all to assist you, returning home to YOU.
It’s not about you eating the popcorn, consuming updates, feeling good, and just “waiting” for the next full moon or energy update…
It’s about applying what speaks to you. Every time.
Making it a priority. Looking up, practicing, trusting your core, breathing, researching, creating, feeling, living your “intuitions” out…
Finding your own way.
Just you being uniquely YOU + practicing in some way (offering, showing, demonstrating, being/doing,) in the body what speaks to your soul.
NOT just “thinking” about it.
RECEIVING and (being) living it.
Whether looking up something burning in your heart and finding your own practice after reading a free flow channeling on a certain topic you’ve also been feeling…
Or engaging in some sort of daily body practice (integrating current energies in your practical life to grounding techniques to ways of rewiring your physiology and nervous or “healing” trauma, jumping/collapsing timelines, energy movement practices, “inner-union” stuff on love, dating, healthy relationships and so much more…)
Or practice with those you feel called toward.
Simple. Just showing up and engaging, fully.
Practicing knowing your own body, field, and nervous system from an emotionally intelligent and trauma-informed place. This takes daily practice.
This is why I’ll also be sharing a lot more around my upcoming content on the body practices of what I’m calling “Energetic Hygiene” which is essentially just this.
Being grounded in your body.
Connected to your core essence.
And Being clear with YOU + YOU.
What is yours and what isn’t—from a soul-authentic place.
(Btw, after the years since a child growing up with energy healing mentors, THIS is the most important takeaway of all practices to date = being somatically in your body while facing what is + knowing your own energy hygiene).
You’ll see more in the coming weeks and months why being grounded in your body (and field) is important, especially when it comes to aligning from within and manifesting without, what you want on an authentic (soul) level.
Super helpful to those stuck in codependent situations and relationships…
Or those cycling and settling for (continually going back to) any kind of unhealthy attachments or trauma bonds/codependencies “over and over” because they don’t know how to end the pattern (receive and integrate the GIFT) and leave the swamp…
And especially to those “gurus and coaches” who keep their students in co-dependent trauma cycles, profiting and siphoning their lifeforce as they promote their “false light ascension practices” — which is mostly mental masturbation.
Ultimately information that is given in a way that is “told” in half-truths instead of shown, lived, and felt from within some sort of simple practice that deepens them.
Because here’s the thing…
Manifesting from the energetic only happens THROUGH your being; the physical
And Trauma can only be released on a cellular, body level.
This is why most stay stuck. Looping the same events over and over.
One may mentally grasp the thing to do or the things they value or want…ie) the solution or ie) forgiveness, yet they can’t release on a body-communication level to make room from an embodied place to RECEIVE something new.
To fully open into a new way of BEING.
A new way of approaching.
Taking action. Whatever.
Instead of just talking about it.
95% of what the coaches and gurus I see who “tell” over inflated false light half truths that keep people stuck in the head and mental field. Repeating the same loops.
This is why I write content the way I do and why I want to start offering content in the future that is more immersive and experiential and on video.
More exercises offered, by demonstration.
Because I feel BEING in your body and grounding the information practically in your life and physiology is so important.
Being able to communicate with your body is key…
To attune to life decisions by receiving information from a body level (ie; your real intuition vs. the fear or trauma)
And know your whole self (not just from the place of what your mind and separate ego think…)
Yet truly recognizing what you already are, as the whole.
Okay…so starting soon in (a majority) of mornings, I’m going to be sending you content that you may very well resonate with along with some practices to help you ground the information deeper.
This might look like a quick channeling note or soul message with a practice or affirmation at the end…
Or maybe a quick video showing you an energy technique or movement practice … some “quick nugget” that you can directly apply in your life right now…
Or maybe even a collective transit astrology update or tarot card reading.
So stay tuned!
And for today, after nursing the baby I felt called to draw an oracle card for the TRD community…
Ha! Of course, the card that perfectly showed up is the card “Receiving”…
Can’t make this stuff up, so cool.
Perhaps the most difficult part of owning our stuff and claiming sovereignty is not just about releasing trauma on a body level or even our attachments to victimhood—-
It’s about being our own lover, by showing up from this place to meet life.
And owning the very places we leak out our own “power within.”
B-E-I-N-G the mother, father, healer, creator in those moments of throwing our hands up and getting down to the nitty-gritty of receiving what we truly NEED.
No longer can we stay in the mental trauma loops, blaming life, anyone, or anything for our own story…
What happened, didn’t happen TO you, it happened FOR YOU exactly as it did to help you to SEE YOU.
To see what experiences high or low you have ultimately called in to get you, to return HOME TO YOU.
No longer can we shame or point or blame anything or anyone for who we are.
It’s time to recognize what is external force (manipulation) vs. what is self-sourcing within and overflowing out?
What is fear and control vs. what is self-love-in-the-body accessing its own internal power?
Just your belief in your story is your consent to its creation…
Because YOU are the center of the Universe.
It’s not happening “out there”… light years away in another galaxy…
It is right here inside us all.
Right here inside of you—
Exists the point of creation, the mirror of truth.
The axis of life…
As within…so without. Upside-down..inside out.
What is in your heart…makes up your world.
There is only YOU + YOU.
Yes, Creator… know this!
And please know you are so loved, even when you don’t choose to love.
Yet you won’t be able to “feel loved” until you choose to love.
And own it.
Your every need is witnessed and responded to by the universe.
However, you sometimes forget this…
THAT YOU ARE = THE WHOLE…
And instead, you become swept up in the momentum of habitual consciousness, forgetting to take a moment to stop, breathe, and be.
And that’s ok. And too, in this moment, you can receive the love of the universe that is receiving you.
Just stand in the sun and try it.
Open your body senses and smile with your whole body towards the sun and notice how you feel.
It will nourish you with contentment and energy.
You have likely not done very simple in-the-body things like this enough, so your soul is becoming parched…drying out.
Energy has been going out of you but there is not enough coming back in. So it is time to bring the love back home.
To receive and be received.
You are being offered a chance for deeper restoration now, to feel nourished, cared for, and loved.
Accept it from YOU!
Show up in it!
Lead from it!
Don’t feel guilty for choosing to be the change.
To be the GIFT.
The healing process below may help you surrender any guilt or shame you feel for having needs in the first place.
It can also help you to overcome any struggle that you experience regarding receiving and accepting so that your needs can be met.
Do you know how much joy the universe gains from being able to give to you?
When you delight in what you receive, when you openly embrace a gift and are so happy with it, the universe is fully received by you.
In this space there is joyful communion between you and life, energy flows more freely, and magic happens.
When you demur saying you cannot accept, that it is too great a gift or that you are not worthy, you are impeding that flow.
You are inhibiting the communion, the connection, the playful interaction between you and the universe.
Enough with the false modesty and guilt!
You are a radiant sun in human clothing.
An exquisite life experience is your birthright. Enjoy it!
From that place of nourishment, you will more effortlessly create, live and love with greater energy and thriving, pulsing juiciness that flows from you.
The earth rests each night so it can greet the sun again each morning with the spectacular living art of sunrise.
Keep that in mind. Allow yourself to switch off, step away, close the laptop, switch off the phone, and just be with yourself for a little while.
You will return and be more efficient and effective. Rest now, play now, and work later. Forget your worries for a while. Switch off. Do something else. Let it all go and it will all flow.
Say aloud, “I release all false guilt and shame about having needs and all false beliefs about rest being wasteful or unnecessary, or that receiving is selfish.
I accept being receptive and being happy to receive. Easy to please. Open to receiving and recognizing my self worth without anyone else involved.
To receive I also realize I must rest. Step out of fight or flight. I accept healthy, productive, sacred rest and the gifts of happiness that it brings. I understand that rest and activity, balance, feed, and nourish each other. The deeper I allow rest (and play) the better I work when I need to and accomplish goals.
There is sacred healing that happens through rest, and through the ability to RECEIVE something new, which is very powerful. I accept and receive this now. Through unconditional love, this is now so.”
Then read this story aloud, as though you were lovingly reading it to yourself as a child. You may like to curl up comfortably on the sofa.
The great French Impressionist painter, Monet, sat in his garden on a warm afternoon…
He was napping lightly on his garden bench, with the sunlight dappling gently through the straw hat resting over his face. It was soft and warm on his closed eyelids. He sighs contentedly.
A nosy neighbor poked his head over the fence, keen to know what the brilliant artist was up to now. “Sir, you are resting!”, the curious neighbor called out.
“No,” responded Monet, wriggling to get even more comfortable on his reclining garden chair, “I am working.” He relaxed further as the mild breeze tickled the hair on his forearms.
Monet returned to his garden the next day. Consumed by the urge to translate his feelings onto the canvas, he painted with great energy and focus.
He was inspired and the paint flowed. Again the nosy neighbor poked his head over the fence. He called out, “Sir, you are working.”
“No,” said the artist, barely pausing with his brush. “I am resting.”
When you are done, give yourself a hug and perhaps have a nap or a cup of tea, or do a little dance around your living room.
Or paint, relax, hug a little longer, go for a walk in the park or do a spot of antique window shopping. Just be, play, laugh, and relax.
Or maybe stop procrastinating and face something you’ve been avoiding. Whatever.
Truly Give yourself what you feel you need.
It’s ok if it’s hard to know what you need at first.
The more often you do this, the more skilled you will become in identifying, facing what is and meeting your needs.
This may be key for you to move forward.
Receiving “already whole”
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P.S. What did this message bring up for you? Leave a comment below and let me know.
P.P.S. The lovely art in this blog post is from a card deck designed by Alana Fairchild.