“You are the roots of the tree, captain of your ship, sculptor and it’s creation dear lover and beloved …”
An Energetic Channeling By Crystal Aryana
As I let go, reorganize and “adult” some of the structures in my life I felt called to share …
Divine time is so funny, I started writing these notes downloads the other day and the energy didn’t come up heavy until now.
Now it’s 5:55 am after staying up all night unable to sleep with this stern calling of the moon.
I feel it’s a profound time to rule adulting in our lives by taking responsibility for who, what and why you are alive on this planet.
The door is open for a new life and has been open since May, are you doing what it takes to step into this new timeline through to the other side?
Are you willing to see that everything you need to take this leap is NOT outside of you – but only within?
We have a Full Moon illuminating our roots with the last little bit of quiet to reflect before we head into the life changing storm lasting for the rest of 2018.
This full moon in Capricorn is traveling 1 degree away from Saturn, sounding the call for a solid plan.
Also with Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Neptune, AND Pluto all in slowed-down retrograde at this time you should be sure to retrace your steps and patch up any cracks in the foundation before moving ahead!
Keep in mind that seeing from the bigger picture also means not forgetting to celebrate what has been accomplished since the year began!
If you look back over the past six+ months, you’ll see your evolution, even if it’s arrived with painful truths so appreciate the whole illumination.
The breakdown leads to breakthrough and this is a time of shining a spotlight in life on all the places you’re holding yourself back, feeling bound, restricted and limited by the way life is organized.
You’ll also notice where you are binding, restricting and limiting others.
If there’s an imbalance in our lives between inner and outer, the objective and subjective, the practical and emotional, we’re likely to see it reflected back to us through the situations, encounters and events playing out right now especially since the June Summer Solstice.
Where can you face areas of rigidity and unhealthy structures, by gently exposing them through your awareness, bringing them up and out of unconscious shadows?
We are being called to illuminate what has previously gone unseen, so expect your eyes to be opened wide by the forces calling you back home.
What is your soul’s purpose and are you fully living it?
Mission. Passions. Goals.
Get in touch with them. Where do you want to go from here and create for the rest of the year and beyond? I realize there is some challenging energies right now and maybe it’s easy to look at the glass as half full.
But turn it upside down and use this energy to plan out your win by giving yourself the healthy and sustainable structure you need to succeed.
What is blocking your inner faith and trust that must you get rid of completely so that you can get specific and clear about what you want to create and live?
It’ll help to reflect on what your relationship with structure looks like …ie) did you have too much structure in your life as a kid? Not enough?
Now you must learn how to give yourself the structure that you need to fulfill your hearts fire.
Expect to be challenged as you are being called to step beyond the confines of your pre-programmed expectations and habitual responses, keeping you locked away from accessing the life you know exists – the life waiting for you to drop the bullshit and show up whole heartedly in.
So make sure you use this quiet time to reflect how the time is heralding new transformation for you during our next three Moons with intense life altering eclipse action.
What has been hovering just below the service that you want to bring into new reality, but you have been skipping over?
What have you been working towards that wants to come into greater alignment but has been blocked lately?
What Do You REALLY Want?
Let in the intense manifesting energy window that is open right now, and crystallize the new reality you want to be soulfully living at this point of life.
Allow this window to show you that by structuring a life you love and getting specific on what truly makes you happy – you can truly have anything you want!
Maybe you’ve been feeling stuck by the people, places, things or words that are keep you limited and small?
Maybe you’ve been pushing yourself into corners that don’t truly exist and don’t serve you or others?
Maybe you doubt if you are really cut out for the leadership roles life keeps bestowing upon you?
Perhaps you have been feeling where you are operating from fear and anxiety verses embodying truth and faith?
This is not to make you feel bad, this is just only about pausing and taking a moment to reflect on the structure of your life so you can write your story differently, dear author.
Instead of passionately feeling, envisioning and taking inspiring action in what you want, where are you sabotaging yourself by hanging onto what is toxic, useless and addictive – distracting you from what truly matters?
For example where have you been writing and cheating yourself out of a life of greater happiness, love, money or new life chapter or adventure you could already be living RIGHT now?
Yes, the full moon is highlighting that any form of resistance doesn’t help so being hard on yourself is not going to make you more worthy. It’s true the destination is not where magic is, the magic is along the way.
This means it’s about the journey and trusting the process along the way. However again in order to step into this role of inner alchemical power you must get rid of what is holding back your energy, perception and heart frequency from expanding and grounding.
Where are you going through deadened motions because its easy and familiar instead of taking a new unfamiliar direction into the unknown?
Where are you spinning your wheels, wasting time in areas that you will never get the answers, truth, success or feelings you want?
Yes of course we have to “go in to get out” and all experiences are valuable in the sense that we must sit with things for months maybe even years to come all be way through to the other side before we can come out it.
So sometimes we have to go through and trust the entire process to fully embody the gift and lesson of our suffering.
And other times we are just holding onto a thing or way that is a total illusion and will not help us to keep re-living.
Which is what I mean by spinning wheels and wasting time by holding yourself down feeling trapped by some sort of illusion or false limit?
Where are you giving yourself away that’s not working anymore?
Where are you holding yourself captive within situations or with people … within stories and thoughts?
These are the kinds of questions you begin asking as you release yourself from prison of what others think and what you think of yourself.
Who cares anymore about getting someone’s approval or attention when your soul is pouring down on you asking you for it’s felt recognition?
Yes you must let go of control of others or having to make something right or be a certain way in order for you to arrive into your power.
Let go of false mindless auto pilot tendencies for controlling life around you needlessly.
How you can set yourself free from obsessing over that which doesn’t serve you?
Another context could be what pressure are you putting on yourself that isn’t even real?
If you choose set yourself free from “always being in control” you automatically free your mind of needing to obsess over these things and thereby open your heart up for manifestation of what you DO want…
Yes it’s time to mind your soul and your own business and not fret over anything or anyone outside you.
It’s time to value YOU and your already wholeness and see from the whole picture without bias or judgement.
Where do you feel like you are imprisoning yourself in story lines that have to work out a specific way in order for you to feel powerful or validated?
This is about actualizing your worth and value from an already whole and inner sustainable place, where you begin and end, accountable for the magician you are.
Even the magician must know itself so where is your center point and are you operating from your truth or are you still entertaining complacent bullshit? Again, where are you valuing or under valuing yourself?
Perhaps maybe you are holding onto and waiting for something?
Are You Wishing for Outside Love or Approval?
Because this is a perfect full moon to stop placing value on other people or objects of love outside you.
Everything is being illuminated right now, so listen up and watch. See what the spotlight is trying to show you regarding your center point in life as you are the captain of your ship – both the lover and beloved and it’s UP TO YOU to live the life you know is possible in your soul.
This isn’t a time to over think and trying fix what no longer works … this is about going inward and seeing from the whole picture, bringing closure to what you have been perceptually struggling with that must be released so that you can transform this space and energy into something new.
This could also mean for you that now is your time “going in to get out” as you complete a huge cycle in your life.
Trusting the process affirms the importance of honoring the process rather than chasing premature outcomes or “feel good bs” that is like swallowing rotten candy over digesting real soul food.
This goes back into the eclipses in 2017 and whatever you were doing in Jan as you were asking for what you wanted but you were not truly ready for it to manifest instantly.
Because now is the time to feel intentionally and visually align with what we want before its time to take deliberate action in July and August.
This is why we must be thankful where we are, as we are. It’s about the process and if we enjoy it we receive grater insights, celebrations and understanding of the journeys magic along the way.
This is a very good check in point to know where your center is in life, and that this center is where you truly value yourself inside and out.
Since our last full moon we’ve been seeing the bigger picture of what our heart and soul has been waking up and asking to come alive in the physical world.
And for this to happen you must also look at what you’ve been avoiding in order to prepare for what is ahead of you.
Because there are things that you won’t see coming in that are on their way right before this time of flux and a lot of unknowns.
This is why clearly seeing the full picture of what you MOST value right now and want more of will help you before the eclipses begin.
Can you focus on WHAT TRULY MAKES YOU HAPPY?
The door is open and a new beginning is possible for you as you step into bigger shoes, and stop wasting time on looking for answers from wrong sources.
We are experiencing this moon right next door to Saturn within one degree and at the same time in a square with Chiron meaning this is huge time with a lot of grounded illumination happening with a significant, challenging and transformational call to your internal depths.
Can you face your inner wounds and churn them into gold by being responsible for how you know thyself light and dark and what you create?
Resistance does not get us where we want to go and right now we’re invited into an alchemical experience of turning the most wounded parts, the most painful, least desirable, most hidden parts of ourselves into true gold, true forgiveness, true self love if we accept the call to this journey and trust the process without demanding instant results …
Now is not the time to divide and separate but to see the whole beyond the “us” and “them” mentality. You can get ahead by taking responsibility for what you happening inside and around you, as above and so below. You begin and end inside you.
What areas of life are you still not trusting soul or your worth or capacity so you instead have you been over thinking, bypassing, hiding and holding yourself back with confusion, lack and separation?
What MUST you let go of that is ultimately keeping you from realizing your true worth and life potential?
The time is asking you to sit and observe all that highlighted right now that will help you shift something significant in how you see your value in the world.
This is shift in now you value yourself will make a WORLD of difference in how the upcoming eclipse season goes for you (in July & August).
We are all being called into trusting soul and all things unseen from the middle way of the heart.
All things empathy, soul, feeling, being, intuiting and somatic energy are waking up causing you to see where your not trusting what you feel and know inside you?
For example how are you assuaging yourself with rotten people or things that are you know won’t help you, but you go after it anyway because it distracts from the truths that rattle you?
What areas of life are you disguising yourself from seeing what truly matters to you? This time can feel like a reality check of where you need to change things up.
What place or person do you keep coming back to, continuing to look for answers and results you know is NOT the place to get those answers and results from?
What walls do you keep meeting because you are not willing to strip down into naked awareness and see yourself as you really are?
Where are you under valuing your inner magic, your inner truth and intuition?
What parts of life is calling your heart to step forward even when you feel not ready and unprepared?
Now is the time to see and feel that you are already whole, already worthy and have everything you need if you can PREPARE yourself for what is ahead and visualize how you want your life to unfold from here.
Use this calm illumination period to see the whole before the rest of this eclipse season uproots how we manifest the rest of 2018 and beyond.
What are we truly culminating or giving our energy to in our lives from here forward?
Feel into all that you’ve learned up until the Solstice last week (see past Solstice update – ill repost it) about recognizing your inner power.
Who are you under the masks and layers of stories you have taught yourself to believe and where l do you have false expectations of happiness?
Where does life have to be a certain way in order for you to feel happy or blossom?
It may be time to drop where you think things or people must be a certain way in order for you to exist and get the kind of life you want.
Where can you take actions and move towards what truly fills your soul, instead of having a judgmental attitude towards yourself for not having it yet?
Because only you can fill this sacred cup and only you are responsible for your reaction to things or how you feel, practice and act in the world.
You are being shown that your Soul directs your life experience and the more you center within your inner Divine, the less likely you’ll feel victimized when life shakes to wake you.
Can you see where life is showing you to step up into the role your heart has been asking for and take emotional responsibility to end the complacency?
Yes words and thoughts must take a backseat to our inner knowing and soul. Yes we must stop using words to write stories that are prisons and see this wisdom our soul is shining reality on.
In fact, there’s is SO much wisdom available in the light of this Moon. Are you ready with eyes wide open to see where you’ve taken the lesser route, side-stepping responsibility and your inner truth in favor of an easier road or more naive approach to matters of gravity.
No heart traveler. No more feeding yourself poison. No more side stepping here.
If you have been stagnating important issues in your life, living too long in an emotional rut, staying too long with a toxic person you just may get a knock on the door with a subpoena to show up for some lessons in setting some adult intentions and clarifying just what you really want to create and live in your life experience, while you set some new boundaries about what is and is no longer acceptable.
Sometimes we must simply walk through the flames to reach the other side, for they are purifying and strengthening, even as they burn through our egoic trauma and distorted templates. We have to go all the way through the get out.
If you’ve tried to rise above and skip over the tough stuff rather than journey straight through them, this is going to be your time to get your feet back on the ground reminding you that you must walk to where you are going and learn along the way. We have to go through the limits to find out “what is” unlimited. This is the breakdown to breakthrough and they are both the same two side of the coin.
If you’re being rewarded with blessings at this time, feel it deeply because you deserve the moment, so fully soak in the rewards you have sealed with your commitment, grit and refusal to back down to what you know you are worth.
This is about truly valuing our inner world and all things you can’t see if you want to unveil the magic you have been mistrusting or misjudging lately.
You may have read this in my last energy update around the Solstice as everything that we went through then is now being highlighted in an even bigger way.
This means how can switch the people, things and places that are not giving you the nourishing food you need at this time with pure inner soul food?
How can you structure your life outside you to meet who you are becoming inside?
Where are you valuing or undervaluing yourself in life is going to keep coming up for us all as we rewire our life to match the upgrade of our heart.
How can you transmute feelings of lack and wounds using them as source fire … as potent channels to our hearts biggest keys and dream?
Where are you finally drawing the line knowing that addictions, co-dependancies and attachments to “outside love” can’t bring you the nourishment and fulfillment you know only comes from within?
In other words what is asking you to love itself as a complete whole, instead of you obsessing and co depending outside of you through things, excessive thoughts or people?
What do you REALLY want to live and feel everyday and contribute and create?
This of course means you MUST STOP focusing on what you do not want or giving any energy to fixing or changing what is not working.
Many who are coming to me lately and even myself can get pretty impatient with the big results because they want to see results happen right NOW in their lives …
So be prepared to trust the process and show up anyway – especially when don’t feel like you are enough.
Yes you want that big thing you’ve been working on to come through…you want the growth or attention or answers and insights; you want the change, movement or happening you’ve been waiting for?
But you gotta be honest with yourself. You are within able to sit back and enjoy the journey as you heart fully envision what you DO want?
Are you able to surrender the walls that are holding you yourself back and get honest with where your not yet complete with the process of being ready to trust and believe in yourself?
Yes … Already Ready, and Whole.
Where are you still looking for things to be a certain way outside you before you can align?
This information is key to unlocking how to create what you want from a place of already whole.
There is a core message that seems to keep coming up of trusting the journey. You are not racing to the end, missing the point of existence?
Can you be happy along the way of creating and building your dream through truly living it?
Can you let go of what your clinging too yet is standing in your way of you fully living your dreams?
Can you trust that what is highlighted right now as not working is what you are meant to no longer use?
Everyone seems to want instant manifestation but can you enjoy the process and journey of seeking it out?
ENJOY THE RIDE. SEE FROM THE WHOLE.
YOU ARE ENOUGH.
Choose to realize that you do have immense value, and you can welcome in what’s truly meant for you.
Feel like you are enough. You want it? Be enough. Value yourself. This doorway is open for you to look bigger beyond the BS and write your life based on what is possible.
Yes those who take time to bake the cake – get to eat it.
Take the time and trust the limits meeting the unlimited, gather your thoughts and tune into your heart through the process.
Choose the option that scares you the most and keep walking forward. Yep, seriously because you’ll grow the most.
And this is where trusting the process of letting go is so sacred because we get to creatively redirect our addiction of validation and authority into our felt direct experience, thus learning who we really are and what we truly want beyond the mask we wear to ourselves and the world.
As soon as you release looking for answers in areas that are disconnected from your soul, you’ll welcome in new things you can’t even see yet which are to unfold for you this summer.
What if you enjoyed the feeling of the unknown and patience?
What if you enjoyed the feeling of integration?
What if you enjoyed the journey and saw yourself as already whole along the way?
Yes dear lover and beloved, creator and creation, pen and paper .. you begin and end inside you.
Only you can feed, nourish and continue taking the leap, trusting what your soul already knows you must do.
It’s powerful to keep in mind that the very structures that can hold the space and release our fullest expression and creativity can also be our dead end walls of a prison.
It’s up to what we choose to accept in our lives and what we choose to mold from what using what limits we have.
Walls have the power to shape us into better humans: to inspire our actions through the spaces we get to act inside of. Or they can oppress us, minimizing hope and openness and freedom.
Use this calm illumination time to see all of these things, both constructed on the outside of you and innate: where you are supported and where you are not.
Where the system has integrity and where it’s lacking. Whose “fault” any situation is doesn’t matter when you see how this only serves to further separate us.
Responsibility on the other hand, belongs to everybody and becomes a powerful method for moving forward together.
Allow this time to poke at the abandonment issues you possess as you discover how to drink sacred nectar within as you get clearer and clearer on what you want in life.
See how how separations of both past and present, that have left scars, ruptures, and openings for a new understanding of how your heart works and what your love needs.
This portal before our summer eclipses reflects the need to make important choices in your lives in order to bring these deep dreams and desires forward.
If you have been on the fence about something, it’s time to see the whole picture!
The universe will reward you for not looking in the same dead end soulless places for new life and instead looking to cultivate the life you are already worthy of and can be whole from, within.
We are all carrying some form of baggage from our earlier years and when we release this stagnant energy, we move lighter, more free, and with far less chance of repeating the same toxic patterns or recreating similar types of dysfunctional relationships that do us far more harm than good.
Like I have been saying for two months NOW is the time the universe will support you more than ever to shed what no longer works but you must listen up and see what is being illuminated and shown to you at this time.
You are about to move into the second part of the year and toward a transformational manifesting stage so now is your chance to release the tension you’ve been carrying that’s been holding you back of creating and external life that truly matches your soul; your inner world.
To do this you must recognize who and what is working with and for you and who and what is not by working against you.
I promise by the time you reach the next Capricorn new moon on January 6th, 2019, we will be astounded at you have envisioned, created and achieved.
Here’s What To Do:
Trust the process and your inner knowing. The soul knows where it is going.
When you let go of the BS and operate yourself from a place of inner trust and already worthiness, the universe supports you greatly by providing the insights, answers and power you need already inside you.
Stay rooted and grounded in who you are so that you can aim and reach the top of your very own mountain as you bathe in this strong willed and determined energy to see what you want from life.
You are going to be reminded of your ability to keep climbing even when life gets tough.
Trust yourself and trust what your soul is gravitating towards (will scare the shit out of you, but a good scare) and allow where you are.
Just like the earthy goat trusts its footing, we too have to trust that wherever we are is exactly where we need to be.
And at the same time be willing to face whatever lessons the Universe sends, including saying goodbye to something painful to open up room for the magic.
Feel the fear and do it anyway. Sometimes we have to push past whatever is stopping or holding us back, and find our heart courage despite it all.